My intention was to peep and see what Emeka looked like now after several weeks of our separation and i guess he most have known i will do just that. Our eyes locked for a moment and i quickly withdrew myself from the window,clutching my stomach with one hand because i felt sick all of a sudden! My head felt heavy and my legs couldn't carry my weight anymore although i weighed no more than a feather now. How on earth did we get to this point? Jesus! The look in his eyes told me this was just the beginning. How did I miss this? Was I too busy or just plain blind to all he was doing behind my back? To think that I fell for his games and lies all seem like a mystery! I heard the car door slam shut,engine revving and the car speed away. I sat heavily on my bed and wept! I wept like I had never wept in my whole life. Even when dad passed away I don’t think I cried this way! It was good for Nneka my cousin to be around because I knew I was ready to hang myself!
Nneka walked in with a hot cup of freshly made coffee and it soothed my insides perfectly.
“Ndo”she said to me and I merely nodded because I couldn’t speak. I could see Nneka had a lot of questions she wanted to ask me but she could see I was already broken and didn’t want to push me.
“How are your kids?” I managed to ask because the silence was too heavy. She pretending not to see me and I pretending she wasn’t there.
“They are fine. Anyi kele Chukwu” I could see my silence had given her courage to ask me what happened, so I got ready and got my ass together no matter how hard or how it hurts I had to let it out.
“O gini mere Chinwe?” I sighed and thought to myself, here it comes.
“Nneka nothing has happened but the only thing I can say is that o gburo m ebgu, o mee ka m malu ife” I propped up another pillow and put it behind my back. Just then my mum walked in, looked me over and said to Nneka; “ gwakwa ya o hmmmmm” Nneka just nodded and my mom closed the door behind her , I could see my mom was tired from crying and I was really sorry I had caused her so much pain. I quickly put that thought aside to avoid hurting more.
“As I was saying my sister, if I knew about all this before I accepted to marry him do you think we would be sitting here?” Nneka wasn’t still getting the picture.
“Hmmmmmm o dikata njo my dear. Emeka was the Mr right I thought i prayed for and to an extent he was until i found out this mess! I can’t even bring myself to talk about it because it’s such a taboo! A sacrilege! An abomination!” I broke down in tears again and Nneka cuddled me. I prayed the ground would open and swallow me but it didn’t!
Ha! First time here and it's Emeka this Emeka that! Gini ka Emeka mere?
ReplyDeleteSacrilege, taboo? Did he sleep wif her mother?...good story wif suspense!!!
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